Monika Patton

Unmoored Monika Patton

In just eight months, I completely destroyed my life.

From the outside, my marriage looked like a sunny day at the beach. Behind closed doors where no one could see, a dark and treacherous storm was brewing. I was about to destroy everything I had spent years building. I was lost, completely disconnected from my myself, my husband and my life.

Desperate for attention and validation, I turned away from my marriage and into the arms of two men I hoped could save me. I thought I was running from my marriage; turns out I was running from myself. In the end, these men didn't save me, but the affairs did end up saving my marriage and making it stronger than it ever was before.

This 13-month journey through the depths of relationship hell was worth it. It opened my eyes to who I really was, who my husband was and the radical changes we both needed to make to save our relationship.

Having two affairs, leaving my husband and ruining our lives is what ended up saving and breathing new life into our marriage.

Here's some of what you'll discover in this very personal memoir:


Why sometimes the only way to find yourself is to lose yourself.
The reason all marriages are vulnerable to affairs no matter how strong, smart or educated you are.
What "marriage creep" is and how to know when your relationship is slowly creeping away.
Why attention is like crack cocaine when you're starved for it. How and why I missed all the red flags. The very intimate text messages between me and the two men I had affairs with. How I got stuck in the "waiting place"... waiting for an email, waiting for a text, waiting for a call, waiting for a plane to arrive, waiting for our next rendezvous, waiting to feel safe, waiting to feel loved, waiting to feel protected, waiting to be saved.
The slow and steady steps we took to rebuild our marriage after the destruction of two affairs.

If you want to read a real-life story of destruction and creation, this is the book for you. You'll learn that sometimes the only way to get to the light is through the darkness.

Click the Buy Now button, and come behind the scenes into this very personal world of betrayal, lust, abandonment, forgiveness and liberation.