Elizabeth Swonson

Constant Craving Elizabeth Swonson

OBSESSION"the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image or desire."Carlene's upbringing taught her if she wants something bad enough, she must put her heart and soul into it. As a young woman, her desire to become a concert pianist is diminished by tragedy. Enveloped by this heart-breaking event, her soul is in turmoil. Her life is over, or so she thought. Then one day, by chance, she has hope for her future. His voice is all she knows, and it resonates into her very core. She can't escape the sensory overload his voice has on her being. She thinks about him, constantly, letting his voice dominate her thoughts, her heart and her mere essence. She must eventually possess him, no matter the consequences. In her determination to find a way to be with him, she's propelled into an all-consuming, frenzied behavior. She dreams and fantasizes about the world he lives in, one that would be intangible by any degree of reason. This desire to be with him sends her out of control. She tries to contemplate what others are thinking. Is it really a fantasy, a fool's desire, or can he fulfill her dreams? She keeps the answers to herself. She believes no one can truly understand why she must pursue him, why he must be a part of her. As she becomes a wife and a mother, life places obstacles in her path however, nothing can shatter the obsession. She has an inescapable yearning forcing her to make choices only she can comprehend. All the same, will the constant craving be worth it, or will she spiral into her own demise?